How I'm feeling now, Tired~ Managed to fall asleep around 6am and slept until 1pm. Chit chat with my mum and went to work at 4pm. Just started on a new book which I found in one of the shelves. It's always a long journey to work, need some thing to keep me occupied now... 

Life is full of ups and downs, you can jolly well live with all the failures and problems, and live to die. Or you pick yourself up, face all the failures and problems and find solutions to it. You only got 1 life, how you want to live it, it all depends on YOU....

F**k.... Can't sleep and now blogging. Been trying to sleep since 1am, flipping and turning on my bed, tried listening to the radio but no use... What the hell is wrong with me??? Haiz... My mind just can't stop thinking of her, thinking about the days when we're together, and now I got so many things that I want to tell her. But what's the point, she will never see this. Stupid shit.... Why??? Why now....What's the use.... AWwww.... Is there a cure, if there's any please let me know, I think I need sleeping pills now.

People only starts to regret when something is lost or gone, they never treasure it. When the thing is gone, then people will start to do something about it. But what for, it's too late. Why are people so stupid to let such things happen, even if it's very hard, did the people even try.... I wondered....

Nothing to do now... Just uploaded some pictures taken at Sentosa last week.

Wondered why I haven't been updating my blog... Hmm, I really don't know what to update in my blog already. As all of you will just hear the same thing again and again liked: going to work, busy or not, go clubbing, which club, etc... This morning received a message from my neighbour, Kenny, he told me the mad guy is back, what should I do.... Anyway who cares, I don't give a damn. Fuck the system~ Going to school now for some exercise....

Just came back from Chinablack, was supposed to stay until 6am but Meijuan was tired and sick, thus we went home around 3am. Went with Reece and Meijuan, Reece had his friends there but they last minute changed place so only the three of us there, but nevertheless we had fun ourselves! Got to go sleep as I have to cover my friend's duty tomorrow at 10am.... Night!!!

Just came back from Double O. Went to meet Michelle and gang there as Leen's birthday is approaching so kind of celebrating it earlier, bought her a card. Hee~ Was late as I met Meijuan at Orchard first then ate a quick dinner together with Kat. Reece was sporting enough to join us even though he was still at home. Thanks brother! Had fun with the people who went.... One last thing, Happy Birthday Leen~

Just now went to NYP to join the guys' volleyball training. Long time never play volleyball, kind of lost touch. After the training, went straight home to catch Smallville. It's been a very long time since I last watched, still as exciting as ever. Next week will be it's finale, can't miss it.... Working tomorrow morning again, going to sleep soon... Night!!!

Hi people, I'm back... Hmm, it's been exactly 1 month since that frightening incident. Although you guys may see that I'm doing well and enjoying life liked going clubbing, but I still feel the fear and loneliness in me. Nevertheless, life goes on!!! Living each day to the fullest and hanging out with the friends around me, and waiting for my enlistment in Sept.
 
Sat.... Met Eric at 8am at Harbourfront Mrt, but I was late by 10 minutes. Feeling very sleepy as I had only a 3 hours' rest. It was very crowed at Sunset Bay, so many participants were there playing beach volleyball, saw many friends also. Had to referee until 2pm before I could have my lunch and until 6pm before I could go home. Got sunburned in my arms and neck as I had to stand under the sun for a long time. Help~ Went home feeling so tired and hungry, meet Shuling and Lijun for supper around 12.30am for porridge.
 
Sun.... Had a outing at Sentosa again with my primary schools friends, only 11 turned up but it was still fun. We met at 10am but everyone was late. Haha!!! It wasn't crowed at the beach, as usual we went to Sunset Bay as Dexuan and I could play volleyball, fortunately we met Kenny and friends there, so we could play together. Went for a dip in the water before playing a few games with them. Played until 5.30pm before we headed to Harbourfront's Food Junction for dinner. And now, I'm blogging here feeling the heat on my skin, the aches from my body and feeling very tired. Going to catch some sleep, working tomorrow.... It was a great day being with so much friends but there is always something lacking~ Night people....

Today was the last day for one of my chef, Ah Kee. He has resign to work for another restaurant but yet to confirm the place he'll be working. He's a joker, always teasing me about my incident but still he's nice. Although sometimes he is very serious but he always cook supper for me~ Take care man... Went for a volleyball competition just now, we lost. But we did our very best to a team far better and more experience then us. Guys, even though we lost but we did well to reach here as most people would think that we would not even win a match. Cheers~ No matter what, we failed once doesn't mean we will fail again, as long we did our best, there's enough.
 
Going to Sentosa for a Beach Volleyball event and I'm going to be refereeing. 5 more hours to go~ Sentosa, here i come....

Went to a wedding dinner with my mum. The hotel had a nice ambience and guess what, it's just beside Zouk. Hehe~ Too bad it's not Wed, if not I sure go clubbing right after the dinner. Nevertheless, I accompany my mum throughout the dinner, had so much food as there was only 8 of us sitting at the table. The food just tastes great~ Help, my tummy is exploding... Hahahaha

Went Chinablack last night straight after my referee duty as I was meeting my friends, Zihui and Kat at 10pm. Was abit rush but I still managed to reach on time. Hell, Chinablack was crowded and happening last night, so many hunks and babes. I only ordered a jug but it was enough, my bartender friend filled the jug with 3/4 Chivas and 1/4 Coke only, it was so thick but still I finished it. Shiok!!! Waited for awhile before Meijuan, Zumei and 2 of their friends arrived. Although I had been standing the whole day, but nothing can stop me from dancing away the whole night. Woo... Really enjoyed myself with a bunch of primary school friends, they too enjoyed themselves as they drink quite alot. Hehe~ Had to go home at 2.30am as Zumei kind of tired already, sent Zumei's friend home before the 3 of us(CK, Zumei, Meijuan) headed home... The 3 of us lived quite near thus I sent them home before I went home.

It's a boring day at work today, raining the whole evening. Yawnz... But fortunately, I recovered from my cold. Hee~ Going to Sentosa this coming Sat and Sun, can't wait for it!!!

Tired.... Had to wake up at 8.30am to go to work. It's was a very busy day and to add to my agony, I suddenly caught a cold. Then I went feel so weak and tired while I was working, somemore I was extended to 10pm instead of 5pm but what to do, need to earn more money. Had to sleep early tonight, working 10am the next day.

Sat.... Been having sleepless night again, thus I took a nap once I reached home as I'll be meeting Kat, Siva, Eric and his friends at Chinablack. Supposed to meet Meijuan also but she was too busy working. Girl, you miss all the fun~ Hee... Reached Chinablack around 9.30pm and started queuing. Met Eric and gang first, lucky we managed to enter before 11pm. Surprisely, I saw the hairdressers from Supercut where I usually go, never expect them to be there but it was nice seeing them having fun. Hell, it was damn fun at Chinablack, party till crazy.... Met Kat in the club and also Siva who came at 1am, you're late brother!!! Come earlier next time... Saw Maisie and gang also, but I forget to tell Maisie something, Congratulations Maisie in getting your driving license!!!! Party until 4am with Eric before we decided to head for home...

Went to have a haircut after work.... Feel so fresh~ Finally can spike my hair again... Meet Kenneth for dinner at Es-teler in Far East, the fried chicken is still the best. Highly recommended, definitely a must try for everyone. Haven't had the time to go Orchard, thus we two guys walked from Far East to Heeren to find out what's on sales now. Although it was just Fri but Orchard was filled with people, every place and shopping mall was full of crowd. Headed to CoffeeBean to have some drinks and talk cock. Kenneth is really crappy, full of nonsense!!! Haha~ Joking brother... Talked alot, especially what to do when we go NS. Quoted from Kenneth, "When you go army, you either become a chiongster or a gengster" Wahahaha... How true is it, we all know. Had to leave around 11pm as I felt tired and I will be working at 9am the next day... Need to catch some rest!!! *Yawnz

Wed.... I was working afternoon shift in my cafe as my friends asked me out to go Zouk that very night. I didn't have any money with me as my pay day is on fri. Luckily, I called my referee boss whether he needs referee in the evening for the Inter-Con Volleyball Competition at Yio Chu Kang Sports hall, and he rescued me as there was one vacancy. It was very busy in my cafe that afternoon, had to run around non-stop for 2 hours serving food to customers. So tiring.... But what to do, money can never be earn the easiest way, only through hard work. Reached home around 6pm and had only less than an hour to prepare. As usual, I took my own sweet time in preparing and what do ya know, I was nearly late... But luckily, I reached before the match got started. Phew~ It was a boring game, both teams weren't that strong and the game lasted for an hour. Boring.... But to my surprise, there was actually a second match after mine but one of the team never show up and so.... It was an walkover, thus all of us can leave early. So great~ Earned $30 for just 1 hour. After work, the time was early so I thought I could go home to bath before I headed to Zouk. Waited and waited for one of my referee friend who was talking to my ex-coach and in the end, we went to the nearby coffee house. Luckily I brought my clothes along... While sitting down, my ex-coach asked if I want to drink with him, i agreed... Thus, spend $6 while the rest was paid by my referee friend. Drank a mixture of beers, Gunness and Heineken. It was the first time I drank this, quite smoothing. In the end, I feel abit high already before I even reached Zouk. Haha....

While waiting for the bus to Zouk, 2 of my friends, Eric and Alfred last minute said they can't make it as Alfred said he lost his money and Eric is alone as all his friends don't want to go. Eric still have the intention to come as he feel embarrass to leave me alone, but I had to find another $10 to pay for him then he will come. I don't know if I'm lucky or what, I saw this $10 at the bus stop and no one picked it up, so I took the opportunity. Thus I gave Eric a call and he was very sporty to agree to come down and join me. Thanks man~ Was meeting Christopher and his friends around 11pm so I had to wait for them. Zouk was damn crowded that night, so many people there.... Went in to check out the situation inside with Eric once he arrived, it was already very packed by 11.15pm. Christopher arrived shortly after and he introduced his friend to me, Zhi Hui. We bought and exchange our coupons for drinks and headed to the dancefloor to find Eric's friend who was having her birthday that night. Drag Christopher along with me and we were partying at the dancefloor, Christopher was enjoying himself and also wanting to kill me. He told me, "I don't know if I should kill you or what, but it is fun here!" Haha~ Of course man, we come to enjoy not to stand like statues. It was fun and enjoyable, everyone was singing to the songs and dancing around. But unfortunately, Eric's friend had to leave early as she was being treated drinks by some guys who obviously wanted to drunk her. Christopher and I asked Eric to hug her so that the group of guys can't take any advantage of her. In the end, she was really drunk and she puked at the dancefloor, but lucky her friends was around so Eric carried her out and her friends sent her home.... Back to dancing mood again and we party over to Phuture which was damn packed, stayed around until 3pm then we left. Christopher was kind enough to send us back home. Thanks man!!! You're the best.... Reached home around 3.30am and had to hurry to sleep as I'm working the following afternoon again.

Thur.... Went to work feeling tired but to my amaze, it was so empty in my cafe. There were only a few orders and I had to find things to do myself. Yawnz~ Feel like sleeping.... Went home straight after work and wanted to take a nap when I reached home around 6pm. Came online and saw Meifang, she suggested if we want to meet for coffee and we both decided to ask our other primary school friends along and so, Me, Meifang, Meijuan, Dexuan, the twins, Wanjun and Reece all came down to Compass Point around 8pm and chatted at Starbucks. Only Meifang and I was punctual, the rest came late one after another. Haha~ Please be punctual next time.... We chatted, laughed and joked at each other around 10plus when the twins and Wanjun went home first as they were watching "Thunder Bolt" The remaining girls suggested we go Chom Chom for some food and we walked slowly to take the bus. We saw this cockroach at the stairs just as we step onto the bus, I saw it first and I turned and warned the girls behind me, Meifang went screaming away.... Hee~ We chatted about my incident on the bus as Meijuan didn't know what actually happened, I explained abit of it and told them what the chefs at my cafe joked about me, they burst into laughters once I told them. Although it was a bad experience for me but I'm glad that it could bring them laughters. But don't always talk about it ok... Reached Chom Chom around 12.30am, we sat down and ate sting ray and some chicken wings. As usual, we talked and laughed liked no one's business.... We were talking about our next outing whether should we go clubbing or go Sentosa, but we were still thinking who are interested. After eating, Meijuan was still very energetic and so we end up at Hougang Plaza for a few rounds of pool. It was supposed to be quite a serious game but still, we joked around about how each other played. Joke only ok... No hard feelings~ Meifang suddenly felt very uncomfortable and felt like vomitting, we quickly end the game and asked Dexuan to send her back as they lived near each other. Reece went home alone as he lived very near Hougang Plaza, me and Meijuan decided to walk home.... And so, I'm here blogging to you guys who wondered where I have been... Need to catch some sleep as I'll be working in the afternoon again... Night people!!!

PS: Once again, I would like to thank all my friends who went out with me these few days, I really enjoyed myself!!! Love you all........

"THE BIRD STORY"

Once there was a wise old man and a smart-aleck boy. The boy was driven by a single desire - to expose the wise old man as a fool. The smart aleck had a plan. He captured a small and fragile bird in the forest. With the bird cupped in his hands, the boy's scheme was to approach the old man and ask him, "Old man, what do I have in my hand?" to which the wise man would reply, "You have a bird, my son."

Then the boy would ask, "Old man, is the bird alive or is it dead?" If the old man replied that the bird was dead, the smart aleck would open the hands and allow the bird to fly off into the forest. But if the old man replied that the bird was alive, the boy would crush the bird inside his cupped hands, and crush it and crush it until, at last, the bird was dead. Then the boy would open his hands and say, "See, old man, the bird is dead!"

And so, as the story goes, the smart-aleck boy went to the old man, and he said, as planned, "Old man, what do I have in my hands?" "Old man," the boy then said, his voice dripping with disdain, "is the bird alive or is it dead?" Whereupon the old man looked at the boy with his kindly old eyes and replied, "The bird is in your hands, my son."

I really like this story as it tells us 2 things... 1. Never underestimate your opponent! 2. Whatever decision you make, there will be 2 outcomes, either it is good or bad, as you hold the control to your life!

Work work work.... These few days I have been working at my cafe from Thur onwards, It's a good thing as I can earn more money. Today (Sat) was working 9am, but I could not get to sleep the night before, keep flipping on my bed until I saw dawn. Regardless of it, I still manage to go to work. One of my friend could not come as he had a bad tummy ache, then I had to be the food runner with Benjamin only. Around 12.30pm, the crowd came pouring in the afternoon, it was busy liked Hell.... My captain had to come help us to maintain the order of the foods. I did not know how long it lasted but when I manage to see the time, it was already 2.30pm. Time really passes quickly when you're occupied. I was supposed to knock off at 5pm but my manager asked if I could extend to help them, as they were shorthanded of runners. So I agreed and I was extended to 10pm, then I have to cancel my volleyball session with my friends, so sorry guys~ Next week I will go... Then the night came, everything was quiet until 7.30pm.... The order kept coming liked nobody's business, was so busy again even though there was 3 persons in the kitchen to handle the food. As usual, my captain suspected that it will be so, he came and helped us again. Thanks Nizam~

Feeling tired after a day's work but was accompanied by Christopher as we were chatting about life and almost everything. Haha~ Thanks man... I will be working at 10am again tomorrow until 10pm... Long day ahead, so it's time to catch some sleep... hehe!!! Night people...

Just came home from work feeling very tired. Today our cafe introduced its new menu to the members and it definitely create an impact, many customers came this afternoon and the kitchen was really busy. Luckily everything was back to normal around 4pm.

Went to Zouk last night with SW, Michelle and gang to celebrate Cindy's birthday. SW and I reached there around 9.30pm and it was liked so empty, we thought no one was coming because there was the Euro semi-finals in the later night. But we were wrong, the crowd starting pouring in around 11pm and the result.... It was damn packed!!! Cindy got a young uncle working there and so we got free entry and also free drinks, 1 Martel, 2 Long Island Tea, 2 Vodka Crystal and Lamborghini for everyone. Happened to meet Phelicia as she will be leaving me soon... Hehe~ You take care girl... Then I also asked Eunice to join me as she was in Chinablack at first but she told me that it sucks over there, they played house music. Haha~ Lucky I never go there... I was repeatedly asking Cindy and gang to go there, because I thought it will be nice there. Fortunate for me... I also saw one of my primary school mate, Alfred... Still cheeky as ever.

In the end, due to the excess of drinks we had. Everyone was so high by 2am and some had to go back early as they were vomiting already. Don't worry people, your identification will be kept a secret! Wahahahaha~ Then lastly I left Zouk around 2.45am and sent Eunice home before I headed home. That's all folks....