Field camp, live range and removal of SOC marks the end of BMT, soon the boys will POP lo... Happy but yet sad, going back to Tekong to continue the rest of my journey till I ORD.

These few months I have enjoyed myself, especially when I'm in my unit. Spent lots of $$$$ but gained priceless memories.... But I guess it's time for me to move on.

Back from camp juz now.... Went back to my playground, Tekong on Mon for my unit's field camp. Before reaching the island, there were alot of other units joining us to the island, ADF and SISpec. Saw some of my ex-Recs at SISpec liked Fizo, jensen and ppl from other platoon.


Going to stay on the island for 5 days and the weather is killing us day by day, humid and hot!!! To add to our misery, we as commanders have to eat the same food as the Recruits, COMBAT RATIONS.... Haha!! It's been a long time since I last ate those green packs, instead i eat biscuits for most of the days plus Uncle Johnny. lolz










During the hot hours of the day, trust me.... You wouldn't feel like moving, so there I am, laying on my SBO catching some nap. Haha... Other than catching some rest, I also read a book "Why Men can't listen and Why Women can't read maps". Quite a interesting book which took me 3 days to complete, an accomplishment I must say 'cos it would take weeks before I finished a book. I believe life is a cycle or a graph, there are always ups and downs, guess its now in the middle, but it shall not change ME!!!!

Field camp ended yest noon, after they finished digging their "graveyards". Headed to BMTC to do their technical break (Wash up & bath), this is to prepare them for a 16km route march @3am. As for me, headed back to my former coy, Raven to look for my buddy, KX and the gang over there to do some catching up... Spend quite a long time, only joined back to my Bn at 11pm as my colleague needed some help, slept @12plus...

Woke up @0145hrs, feeling shagged!!! Not enough sleep man... But who cares... The march kick off @3am, but the speed was damn slow for me, felt liked walking instead of marching. The march was smooth and finished at 0700hrs, I didn't feel tired but..... my CO wanted to carry on marching and finish 24km at one shot. At first I didn't agree with him, but I feel that we should push ourselves to the limit. Unfortunately, not everyone thinks the same, most of them objected... Hai~ Bit disappointed with the end decision but what to do, even my OC objects. Life goes on....

Reach camp at noon, started weapon cleaning straightaway before they are allowed to do anything else. While they were doing their stuffs, I was playing with this new-born kitten at my Coy line... Book out @5pm and slack til now, bought my favorite Fried Hokkien Mee for dinner as it is the 1st meal that I'm having for the day....

From a faraway land...

Nobody, somebody, everybody.

No one, someone, everyone.

I'm alone, you're alone, everyone's alone.

I'm here, you're there, everyone's separated.

I'm sad, you're sad, who's happy?

Boy acts strong, girl acts stronger.

But what's inside of both hearts, only they know.

Time comes, time stays, time goes.

Have you tell her, you loved her.

You're still here, but she has gone.

Boy shed, tears dropped, months pasts.

Boy past away, girls returns.

Time will never return.

Come with nothing, fight for something, end with nothing.

In the end.... Everything is still empty.

Just before I gonna die...... Many thoughts just flew to my mind. Can't remember all but...

Life to me so far seems so meaningless, living day to day without any directions! Quite stupid right? I guess it's just me, taking one step at a time.

Something hit me hard when questioned what I was running away from.... Guess these 2 years haven really been happy for me, drowning myself in my own world... Feel really helpless when I can't help people!

I will rest. Wake me up when the world ends, maybe then I feel like waking up.

"So Sick"

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin' you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?