Finally, the power is back!!! There was a power shortage for almost 2 hours, luckily I was still outside so I escaped the sudden darkness. Everywhere was so dark when I reach my bus stop and I could only feel the moon bringing some brightness onto my neighbourhood. Suddenly, I feel scare... Scared that I might meet into danger again, but luckily I joined one of neighbour in climbing upstairs to our home. At that time, I told myself to be brave because I am a guy... Haha!!! So gradually, I was back to my old self.

Nothing happened much these few days, went to work as usual. But I went to play billiard on Mon with my friends and chatted with them about volleyball until 5am. So tiring... Got home around 5.30am and went to bed at 6am. But I don't know what happened to me, I could not get to sleep even though I was supposed to work as waiter at 12pm which was just a few hours away. Something was bothering me but I don't know what it was, had to struggle to sleep. Luckily it wasn't busy at the cafe, everything was so quiet that I had to find things to do and I even asked my captains what can I help them with.

Sometimes I feel that I ask too much, to the extend that people get irritated easily. Is there a problem with me??? hehe.... Please advice! Lolzz....

Yesterday was the last day for the South East Asia Junior Women Volleyball Championship, it was not very exciting because i have seen them played before many times. But still, i manage to get the signatures of all the players. Woo~

After my duty, feeling very lost and alone, i decided to go Chinablack. I asked a few friends to come but they all last minute stood me up. So sad~ Luckily i saw Maisie and her friends, hope they didn't find me irritating. Thank you people!!!

In the end, i went home feeling abit drunk, tired, down and lost......

Finding myself a very emotional guy, cry too easily. But what can i do, all this while i have been keeping things inside me which i find it harder and harder to compress into my tiny little heart. The way i see things are still not wise enough, thus often i do and say the wrong things. Here, i like to apologize to the people whom i once say or do something that irritate you. Sorry~

Looking at the road ahead of me, i cannot see a clear path and i cannot ask people for help, i need to climb my way up myself. i fell down many times as i meet people who push me down, i don't blame them because i might have offended them in some way which i did not know. Now i need to climb, walk until i reach the summit of a mountain....

I'm crying now... but who can help me... no one!!!

Today's volleyball match between Vietnam and Singapore was truly amazing. All along, i thought Singapore was not going to get in the finals, but they prove me wrong. They play excellent today, congrats~

The incident i had was a week from now, to speak the truth, I'm still afraid when I'm alone in the living hall with the main door not closed, feeling very insecure and scared. I would close the door instinctively even though i feel hot, but i feel safer. But I'm glad that there are still some friends (Chee Keong, Remus, Annie, Neeta) who sent sms and called me, asking me if i was ok. I feel very happy because I'm not forgotten, i like to thank them for their care and concern. With your supports, i will be fine... I'm looking forward for tomorrow as i will be meeting Ben, Heng Ann and Kenneth for some catching up, i can't wait... Hee!!!

Went to Police Cantonment Complex in the early afternoon around 11.30am to have my statement taken down again, this time is done with a computer. I had to repeat the whole incident again with more details to it. The officer was typing all the time, trying to find the correct description to everything i mentioned. It lasted about an hour plus, 12.50pm then i was allowed to leave the place after signing the statement i gave. The police still needs my help if they need to clarify with anything...

After the tiring investigation, i went straight to Toa Payoh Sports Hall where the South East Asia Junior Women Volleyball Championship was held. I had my duty as a line judge at 4.30pm but i got nothing to do during the time, thus i decided to report early. Feeling cold and lonely, i reach the place around 2.10pm. I saw one of the participating team was having their training, it was quite fun to see them play against each other but soon, i felt very tired and sleepy. Had been doing my duty as a line judge since Tue for the event, it is quite an interesting experience for me as i would be abit nervous even though i was not the empire or referee. Went home straight after my duty as i did not feel well, started to feel very cold and whole body was feeling abit weak, maybe it's because the air-con in the sports hall.

Feeling very exhausted now, can someone buy a battery for me.... Haha! I guess not...

Here I am blogging again... After some things that happened to me, so many thoughts just swam into my head.

Fri.... After the terrifying incident and continuous interviews from the reporters and the polices, I decided to go out. But just before I went out, my friend Eric called me as he saw me on the news, he was shocked about what had happened, asked if I was ok. The other one called was Shu Fen, she was abit shocked and also surprised to see me on the news. Then followed by Hendry, my mahjong buddy, he was also shocked to see me on the news. A few friends also sms me, Maisie the Mei Nu!!! Weiyang, Huiling and a few of my friends. My brother was kind enough to drive me out, while driving out my bro called me, Kenny!!!! He was damn shocked and asked if i was ok and asked what exactly happened. Get well soon. I went to look for my friend to pass something to her and also wanted to ask whether she would like to go out together, but she was meeting her friends after she knocked off. Too bad... As i wanted some peace plus i don't want to go back home so soon because looking at the bloodstain makes me feel very scared. Went to Chinablack alone, sms some of my friends to see if they were going but only one was there. I did not join him though, just went to say hi. The music was nice, but i was not there to enjoy, i was there to be alone~ I stood for awhile but i managed to sit down on a comfort couch. Chinablack was ok, was opening until 6am and the queue was not long so i sms my friend whether she wants to come but she was going somewhere else and said will sms me if she is going later. In the end, no replies. Haha!! Guess i was destined to be alone that night. Sit around until 2am before i head for home, feeling abit hungry but i did not have any appetite. For the whole day, i only manage to eat 1 pack of Fried Hokkien Mee which my brother bought for me. As i was working the following day at 11am, i tried to catch some sleep. But to no avail, i couldn't sleep....

Sat.... Before walking to the sports hall, i passed by the coffee shop where my mum usually goes to, all of her friends said i was lucky to escape from the fierce encounter. Going to referee was quite tiring, my eyes was all swollen because of my sleepless night. Upon reaching the sports hall, my boss straight away asked me over and started to tease me, saying "Why you molest girl, appear on paper..." Lame~ Then some of the other referees who are mostly uncles also tease me liked "You become famous" Ya, i agree i did, but in the wrong way... As i didn't want to talk much about the incident to them, i just told a brief story to them. Went home straight after my duty, and started sms people about my new number. Not trying to make myself famous more but just feel liked changing as i had this number for some time already. But to my amaze, i guess not many of my friends watches news or newspaper, as some of them were quite ignorant about what happened to me. But it's ok, i don't blame you all~ hehe... But i am glad some did asked about my condition... Then started to ask some people out, asked Eric if he want to go Chinablack with me and steadily, he agreed and said will ask some of his friends. Wow, having companies of friends was really great, makes everything look so nice, thus clubbing at Chinablack rocks!!! Plus, i cut the queue in.... haha~ Saw some other friends there and they were also asking what happened to me as they saw me in the paper. It was a good night as i drank alot and i danced alot. Cool~ Headed home around 4plus and being drunk is quite a good thing for me, i don't have sleepless night, i fell asleep a short while later... Nice!!

Sun.... Was late for work as a waiter because i overslept due to my over drinking.. Hee~~ Reaching the workplace, all of my colleagues were talking about me asking me what exactly happened and some even tease me, "Why you never fight one on one with him" Why never take a knife and challenge him" I had to explain 4 times to different groups of people. But one of the chef said something which i feel very meaningful. Here goes, "You are a lucky fellow to be alive after all this, then he continue and said, you are a hero! You should cut down the newspaper article and show them to my children and grandchildren, telling them that they would not be here if i was killed" Coming to think of it, what he say was quite true. He enlighten me abit, but i know he was just trying to make things sound better. Today is Father's day, but my cafe was not very crowded, i was like talking the whole day about my story and only worked about a few hours. Went home straight and now blogging.

Here, i would like to express my gratitude to those who showed their concerns and care for me. For those who never, it's ok.... Just remember that i am still around. I once thought that i might die and people will only see my last moment during my funeral, i am glad that the day has been postponed. I am really frightened, as i do not know what will happened to me..... But anyway, since God gave me this chance, i want to express my love to all my friends (The names are not in order, and for those i never mentioned, don't worry!!! I still love you...): Regine, Maisie, Shu Fen, Andi, Kenny, Huiling, Weiyang, Maisie, Elaine, Bengamin, Roger, Shun Chang, Yuan Hong, Kenny, Eric, Shuling, Ling Ling, Xiangling, Elieen, Alan, Sunny, Felicity, Yin Yun, Michelle, Yoke Wah, Kat and all my colleagues at Raffles Town Club. Last but not least, this is for u, i love Slurpi! I'll give her m&ms unconditionally. Hehehe~ Take care guys and gals, i love you all... God bless you all!

Yesterday (Fri) was the most frightening day of my life.... Everything was normal in the day, i went to referee as usual and went home straight. Fri was a special day for me, so i had arranged to meet my friend, to pass her some gifts. But everything changed...

While i was leaving the house around 3.30pm, i saw my neighbour who had mental problems standing at the corridor, he held a short kitchen knife and run straight at me without saying anything.I was shocked, my first reaction was to run back into the house, his face was really fierce plus the knife he was holding was pointing at me all the time. I tired talking to him, asking him "Uncle, what are you trying to do" & "Don't like that" I was really scare at that time, scared that i might be killed or be stabbed by him. I quickly ran inside my house, trying to close the gate but he already reached my doorsteps and held onto the gates. I move backwards quickly and ran into the master bedroom where my mum was. And together, we closed the door together and called for the police. At that time, he was still outside of the room hiding, waiting for us to come out but we never. Then suddenly, he started kicking onto the door and slammed our telephone onto the ground. All my mum and i could do was to listen for any noises, so we could not see what things he had done outside of the room. Not long after, we heard some shouting at the staircase, and heard 2 gunshots. We saw some police cars at the carpark, so i decided to check the situation. Luckily, he was not in the house anymore as i checked every corner of the house. I saw some policemen standing outside at the corridor so i assume everything was calm, so i went out and check out what happened. I saw about 10 policemen at the staircase and went back to my house to check if anything was missing. But i was in shock and very scared, so i called one friend and to inform about what happened. But i guess my friend was busy, as sounded quite restless. So i just hung up after i called. I was really frightened, scared that i will die... I thank God for blessing me for my safety.

At this moment, i got alot of thoughts in my mind. When you are around with your family, friends, buddies, girlfriends/boyfriends, please expressed your love for them, as you can never predict what will happen next. Always treasure the things you have, as once you lose it, you can never get it back. So friends out there, cherish every moment with your loved ones. I have been there, i was nearly killed. Half my soul has gone, now i will be in search of a brand new me, this is my turning point in life....

It's been quite some time since i last blogged. So here i am to update u people about what i have been doing. I had been working as a volleyball referee in the day at Hougang Sports Hall, and as a waiter at Raffles Town Club during night time. Time passes very fast, i got no time to do something i like for a long time. Wed was the last night i worked as a waiter, because i wanted to rest awhile and do something with my loved ones, as next week i'll be doing my referee job in the South-East Asian Games. After working on that night, i wanted to go out but too bad, i couldn't find anyone so i decided to head for home. As i will be referee-ing the next day at 11am, so i tried to sleep early. But too bad, the sleepless nights came back to me again. I could only get some sleep when it was 5am in the morning.

On Thur, i went home after my referee duty. Feeling very tired, but i was suppose to meet my friend at night so i decided to buy something for this special friend. Unlucky me, my friend got something on so couldn't meet me, so my night was cancelled. But fortunately, SW came to my rescue. He asked me out to go clubbing with Winnie and her pri sch friend, Yu Shan. Our destination was Double O, so i asked some of my pri sch friends to come along too. So there was Tiffany, Sandra, Kat~ I would like to thank them for coming... Cheers~

Can't get to sleep... Maybe because im thinking of alot of things... Already so old but i still don't know what i want, feeling very lost now. As im going into army soon, im still thinking of whether to sign on, but how long should i sign?? I don't know... Now my life is quite boring, everyday work work work... Only some fri or sat nights then i may go relax awhile, but is it fun?? I don't know... My friends and brothers are hard to find now, some already in the army, some don't like to club, some have their own things to attend, who can i turn to? I don't know. Hope i can find an answer.... Anyway, i got to try to sleep as im working tmr morning.... See ya!!!

A really bad day for me, dont feel like talking about it. Can someone tell me what i am??? Need some advices.... Help................................................................................

EXHUASTED.......... Haiz

Tired, just feeling exhuasted after almost a week's work. So i am going to take a break for a week to do other part time. Two of my best friends, Nick and Shaun have gone into army and Kenny is going on the coming Thur, i am going to miss you all.... All the best Bros~ One last thing, Andi, i miss you.... hahaha

It seems to be a long day for me. Went clubbing again last night with Regine and Maisie, it was fun but something was lacking. It is my brothers, because i miss their companies. Guys, i miss you all. haha~ Saw some of my friends there, Siva and Desmond. Siva was damn high man, dancing around like nobody's business... Power~ Went to Hougang Point for some food before heading home.

Woke up at 1pm, feeling very restless as i still have to work at 6pm. Reaching the workplace at 5.30pm. Today my cafe not very busy, so time was passing slowly, how i wonder that i can go home now. And here i am blogging again. Got to go, see ya~

Feeling veri tired, woke up at 9.15am. Dun feel like sleeping... dunno y, juz dun have the mood to slp.. As im meeting my survey supervisor at 11am, have to complete some surveys to be checked by her later (it's a part time job). Den after tt, i have to go to the airport, cos today Andi, one of my best buddy, brother is going overseas to further his studies le... Feeling kinda sad~ Reached at the airport at 1pm where they haven not come yet. Sat outside the terminal 1 departure hallway, pondering abt life... Things often happen when u least expected, so no matter wad... dun look at the past abt the problems, it's best to find a solution and get over it. I guess i nid more time cos i feel kinda lost now.... Can someone lend mi a compass?? hehe!!

Finally, Andi came... So happy to see him and also Kenny plus an addition lady, Sharon. hehe! den shortly after, Xiao Qiang and Rabbit came, Nicholas too and 2 of Andi's fren... Went to Burger King for some bites, yummy~ hehe! but i feel kinda broke already.... haha! but Andi help mi chip in abit... Thank you brother!!!! To my surprise, Remus also came... but he juz stayed for a short while and left... Time was ticking away, closer and closer to the departure of someone special... We made slow steps to Gate 1. Reaching there, we took some pics tt we can keep as memories... Den the final moment came, it was time for Andi to go... One by one, Andi hugged each of us emotionally... Tears started to gather ard his eyes, it was the 1st time i saw him cry... I was not spared, eyes was red and filled of tears... My brother is leaving le... Realli cant stand these kind of departure thingy, but we muz face it. Ppl come and goes in ur life, as long as u have cherish them for even a short moment. Tt's good enough. Andi enter the gate and bid us his last goodbye.... Goodbye Andi~ see u in 5 years time, do come back when u are free ok??

I learned something from tiz... When u are with ur loved ones and ur friends, cherish them! Cos u can nv know wad will happen next... But tiz time, it is for a good thing. Cos ppl got to move on, and my brother is going to further his education. I wish u all the best in everything u do... Andi, as u're one of my special brother i will not forget u thus we shall continue tiz relationship to the next life, onz?? Take care bro, gonna miss u when u're not ard with me and our gang...

Wow, yest nite was a great day for me. It started when i was working cos not much customers were there so my job was very easy. Yest was also a special nite, cos it will be the last time i'll chiong wif Andi cos he will be going overseas to further studies. The venue, Zouk. It totally sux man~ no crowd at all... u heard mi rite, no crowd... so little ppl, i feel so sianz already. Den lastly we changed to ChinaBlack. Yupz, tt's the place to be man... So much fun, meet some frens there and also an Aust guy... Nice to meet ya!!! Overall, not bad... hehe!!

After clubbing, we went to Lau Pa Sat for supper. Some of my frens were already drunk and too tired to eat... haha!! guys, u gotta do better next time... It was already 5.45 when i reach home.. lolz!! got to get some rest....

Getting tired... Can someone lend mi a helping hand... See ya ppl~

Can someone tell me who i am? Im veri tired after a long day's work, nid some rest... cya ppl~

Woo..., a very tired and long day!!! Had to wake up early to go to work and today's weather is freaking hot. Finally, back to work again, lucky today dun have much customers ard today so it was quite relaxing. See alot of familiar faces, and especially one of the cook named Ah Beng, always so nice and kind to cook something nice for me to eat.... hehe!! Thank you, Ah Beng!!! Actually i got a briefing today on a survey thingy, but no one wanted to change shift with me, made me so sad and pissed. But wad the heck... After work, went to suntec to pick up some stuffs and then went home... Long day~~ Gotta go slp soon... nitey ppl

Yoz ppl, nothing to do so juz BLOG~ hehe! nothing much happened today, juz went town for some saeke sushi with my fren. Yummy~ ate alot... And i learn a new jap word, "nabe" which means claypot. Cool isn't it... so next time if u heard mi say "nabe", it's not a vuglar word. lolzZzz... After the sushi dinner, guess who i saw. Jack Neo himself, not so tall anyway... hehe!! then went shopping ard in town and went home after tt. Tat's all folks, i gtg... working tmr afternoon... Peace~